your like my band aid

got back most of my test today... was very very disappointed in my results. i'm taking 6 subjects like in secondary school. sigh... stress. all my friends did so well expect me. well i blame myself for not studying hard for the past term test and i'm definitely gonna work hard for the next one and not gonna retake any subjects next sem. NO!!

my subjects:

PIPC (chemistry): FAIL

MATHS STAT (A maths): FAIL DAM BADLY

COMM SKILL: FAIL BUT NEAR A PASS

OBC (chemistry): PASS BY A LITTLE

SFP: JUST PASS

HAP (biology): DONT THINK I PASS ALSO LA...

people who read my blog, please leave a comment for me to ask me to work hard. and to give me motivation people!! all my friends did so well, i lost motivation. sigh. i miss my secondary school friends where they'll give me motivation to work hard and we will work hard tgt. in poly is DO or DIE! leave me comment people!

found this picture in my thumbdrive. this was taken in ikea the children section slide. hahaha!

this was also in my thumdrive. also taken in ikea! haahaha!

there's something about you that's like the sun... you warm up my heart - band aid

cry me out

was going through my phone pictures. i found i've lots of pictures! hehehehe! and pictures are few years back. hahahaha! i look young! i miss those days! look at my young pictures people! okay la not that young but still young la!

this one ar... i think i'm in sec 3! hahahaha!

shiyun and wo!!!! taken in the school toilet! hehehe!

I MISS DNT DAYS!!! GRACE AND SUNI AND MR TAN AND EVERYBODY!

and how late we used to stay back in school!

not really enjoying poly life now. can't find best friend or girlfriends. still seconday school friends the best!!! hehehe. i want to have gathering like how we used too last time where everyone's timing are almost the same. not like now. want to meet up also difficult. okay la! shall not complain much. study hard tan-poh ying. got got 2 pronunciation name so i added my mum's surname. hahaha. okay i know lame can? or shld i call poh-tan ying. eeee! not nice. going to sleep to charge energy to prepare a long day of lecturessss tmr... goarn!

the way the world works...

sleepy...

so sleepy now... today ended school at 2! like first time. went for a jog! feel so good! okay off to sleep till tomorrow sun come up. hahahaha. shall blog abt something nicer when i have time. i'm gonna study like real hard!

okay eyes half close alrdy....

i've found what i've lost for the past few months...

D.I.Y-ing

wednesday, outing with gracey and suni! hahaha! wanted to go on picnic but who knows rain the whole day. orchard still flood somemore. hahaha. so we spend or time walking ard and have late late lunch at kfc and d.i.y-ing our stuff. hahaha. so fun and funny! hahahaha! i wanna have more outing like this! wwwoooohhhooo!

and... i'm so gonna get this. so pretty! is DSLR! its 600 bucks! maybe next IT fair i want to buy. wahahhaha! must save money liao!

and i promise to study REALLY hard when school starts. no more nonsense from me. hahaha! i wanna do more d.i.y stuff myself. and suni's flea market on 10th of july. yeah! oh and suni you're my bf okay? cannot two time me!! ahahahha! grace although you got people want liao but i also want you okay? hahahaha!

nice songs:

pixie lott - my love

pixie lott - the way the world works

pixie lott - jack

pixie lott - hold me in your arms

pixie lott - nothing compares

pixie lott - gravity

pixie lott - turn it up

okay off to sleep, school tmr..... (holiday mood)

making myself tired so that i could sleep better during the night.

exhausted.

can't sleep...

toss and turn on the bed for an hour or so, finally fell asleep ard 1am. this morning woke up at 8am. ohgod! i need more sleep! i was thinking a lot a lot of stuff before i fell asleep yesterday. so tired... going out later, hope the rain stops...

rain rain go away...

nice photos!!

yesterday went out to celebrate huiqi and peiying's birthdaysss.... all 18 already. wahahahaha! but i still the oldest. :( okay la never mind. i wanna wish peiying:

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY!!

yeah! some of the pictures are up from the outing and celebrations. hehehe. i like photos!! hahaha!

okay i like this picture but is too bright!!

friday outing, taken by eunice!

eunice say i love her hot butt!

huiqi and me! somebody very sexy!

hehe taytay!

oooooo! I LOVE THIS PHOTO!

they eat the birthday cake then never give me!

my shiyun. hahaha! so long no see her liao! wahahahaha!

shld i get a camera?? i feel like leh. how huh? today was tuition and gym. muscles ache. hahaha. i saw baith at gym. hehehe. going out tmr! yeah! i love gathering like yesterday with secondary school friends, like we used to after school or holidays outing. hahaha! i miss secondary school, like everyone is saying that. so happy!! hehehehe! and idk why! hahahahahaha!

byebye...

flaws...

okay update a little, friday went out with huiqi and mr and mrs faizal. hahahaha! didn't get anything when shopping. today ahma (dad side) death anniversary woke up early in the morning to head to bedok. then back home fall asleep then research. got difficulty in starting, shall continue tmr. hehehe. i'm so bored. i must be committed to smth man! to find smth to be committed to.

was looking at the pictures from my thumb drive and i saw my hongkong trip pictures. hehehe. i forgot how old was i. 16? pictures were taken in disney land. hehehe!

pohyee, mickey, me! we were looking at the other camera...

winnie and me!!!

this was in their shop where they sell all the disney stuff.

i found this picture on shiyun's fb. hahaha!

i'm so tired even after having afternoon nap. i don't want my life to be so boring. i don't used to be like this last time. what happen to me? maybe i just have to learn to move on with life when somethings are gone and look for the 'future' things. maybe some ppl need bf's to be in their lives then they will feel complete. but until now i don't know what i want. to focus on studies and get into a uni? oh yes definitely. i must buck up. but sometimes i feel so lost... i want to have gd memories when i look back in life when i'm older. in the past time really show me how to put things down.

well... i believe all i need is time & learn to let go what's not mine.

and i trust that looking for your better half takes time. what is yours will be yours and what is not will forever not be yours. my good friends out there, take ur time to find ur better half cause we're still young. hehehe! i love to say i'm young. I WANNA STAY YOUNG FOREVER!!

aiya why sound so wired in this post. anyway is just some feelings. sometimes human feelings are complicated and i love writing down my thoughts and looking back at it... so funny, silly me. i used to write in a diary of my own. hehehe. don't laugh at me hor. dairy only what...

all i need is time.....

someones 18!

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY HUIQI!!!!

hehehe 18 liao hor... must grow up liao. haha. i wished she can find her prince charming soon! wahahhaha!

oooohhh! i like this picture!!

went out with grace yesterday then.... we saw SUNI!! hahaha! miss her so much!! we going picnic next week! yeah! and i'm meeting eunice and huiqi tmr... like finally. hahaha. real real real lazy to do research.... how huh? people tell me how? waiting for pohyee to buy lunch back for me. hehehe. gonna workout later. hehe. i love working out! hahaha. okay lunch's here. bye...

be contented with what you have. Don't always compare your pass with your present, cos, in the end, you're the one suffering the most! Cherish what you already have. Cos when it's gone, you'll start regretting.

from: shriek for ever after...

boring...

hey hey, i stayed home all day today. wanted to go for jog today but it was raining the whole day which made me feel like sleeping the whole day. ohgod! i promised to do research today ya? but i didn't do anything but online shopping and fb the whole day.

took pictures with webcam. okay i know my hair look so aunty at home. hahaha. but nobody's looking...

plan was to go sentosa tmr with classmates, but... plan cancel cause some people couldn't make it. so i had no plans tmr... who wanna ask me out tmr? of i have to wait till friday to meet up with eunice and huiqi!!! oh god! i need to go out badly. i don't want to rot at home!

and to my friends out there, sometimes being single isn't as bad. i believe after you've broke up or know that the one u love ain't gonna be urs, brace urself up and move on with life even though it's hard or how difficult its gonna be. when you start to move on with life you'll realise how pretty life could be and start looking at life at a different angle. actions speak louder then words. and if someone ever hurt you, think that it's part of life where our life is filled with emotions and this is part of life that we, humans have to go through. goodluck girls!

hehehehe...

shld i get a camera or a i-touch?

don't get mad if a girl cares too much. worry when she doesn't give a dam...

minnie!

okay i've got nothing to blog about. i find my life mundane... keep awaiting for holidays to come and yet it's holiday now and i've got nothing to do. little lazy to start my project. did some research and tv the whole day.

i've got a new minnie at home.

went for check up today. my medical report says that my thyroid went from high to low. now that my thyroid is too low. very ma fan leh. hahaha. so bored. i promise myself to do research tmr okay? hahaha. and i'm sure i'm gonna fail all my term test. but i'm gonna study hard after term break ends.

ohya went for hair cut today with mama and pohyee. thought that my hair was boring and i wanna snip of my ends.

before hair cut (okay i know u can't see the bottom, look at the top picture of my blog, you'll get to see my old hair)

after hair cut (okay i know u also cant see the bottom but is obviously shorter right?) and i shorten my fringe,

i don't know why i just don't like to wait for something to come to me or to do something or to wait for somebody. not that i don't have the patients i just don't like to wait. and i don't like eating alone. hehehe.

maybe..... i was wrong.

hhmmm, delicious cream puff!

so bored at home, plan was to go out tonight with parents, but cancel. holidays started, can't wait to go sentosa! yeah! suppose to do project. but who wants to be staying at home during weekends to do project. i find my blog boring. should i delete my blog? (random)

looking at fashion pages from the net right now. fashion = so cool!!

i'm really so bored.

some random thoughts:

have you ever did something wild?

have you ever love someone so much, until you want to spend all of ur time with him/her?

what was to most awesome thing you did for ur life till now?

what is LOVE to you guys?

has anyone regret on something in ur life?

okay enough of my nonsense. shld i get a hair cut?

long bangs like this? my bangs always not nice one leh. eunice and suni's bangs all so nice. my hair so sian... bangs like this?

i don't care! i want to go shopping this holiday. is the summer collect right? and it's GSS period man! hahaha. shld i take design for cds (cross disciplinary subject)? i don't know la, very luan. and and and i wanna go slimmer. but i won't go on a diet, but exercise. but still i will control, not to eat too much snacks. hehe.

maybe i shld start doing research... but... SO SIAN! hahaha.

i can't make up my mind, can i?

the thing in me...

i don't normally tell people what sickness i have. because normal people don't understand what i meant when i explain to them. what i have is called the thyroid disease. thyroid is part of our endocrine system, where the thyroid is a large endocrine gland found at the area where our neck is. everyone has a thyroid, but people with thyroid disease, like me, will either have hyperthyroidism or hypothyroidism.

what is thyroid?

The thyroid is a large endocrine gland found in the neck within the human body. It regulates the speed at which energy is burned and protein is made, as well as the sensitivity the body should have toward other hormones. When thyroid problems affect an individual, different diseases can be present.

and as for me i had hyperthyroidism.

Hyperthyroidism is a condition of overactive thyroid function, leading to excessive production of thyroid hormones triiodothyronine (T₃) and/or thyroxine (T₄). As thyroid hormones control several body functions, including metabolism, this excess causes extra stimulation which speeds up some body systems. Thyrotoxicosis is used to describe hyperthyroidism which is presenting symptoms (is symptomatic).

source credit: http://www.thyroidproblems.org/

picture of a thyroid gland.

picture of a women having sever thyroid disease.

for me, i discover that i had thyroid when i was in sec 2 (14 years-old). the doctor told me, i was too young to be having thyroid problems. i had thyroid problems because it was inherited by my mum. i had never blamed her for that. though i may look healthy but my immune system is low and much much more stuff. i have been under medication for 4 years and doctors are advising me to take up the iodine treatment to kill my thyroid cells, where after the treatment i will have to undergo medication for the rest of my life.

term test are finally over, and its time for term break!!! but term break = to 2 weeks of project.

have you ever hurt someone without realizing it?