cry me out

was going through my phone pictures. i found i've lots of pictures! hehehehe! and pictures are few years back. hahahaha! i look young! i miss those days! look at my young pictures people! okay la not that young but still young la!

this one ar... i think i'm in sec 3! hahahaha!

shiyun and wo!!!! taken in the school toilet! hehehe!

I MISS DNT DAYS!!! GRACE AND SUNI AND MR TAN AND EVERYBODY!

and how late we used to stay back in school!

not really enjoying poly life now. can't find best friend or girlfriends. still seconday school friends the best!!! hehehe. i want to have gathering like how we used too last time where everyone's timing are almost the same. not like now. want to meet up also difficult. okay la! shall not complain much. study hard tan-poh ying. got got 2 pronunciation name so i added my mum's surname. hahaha. okay i know lame can? or shld i call poh-tan ying. eeee! not nice. going to sleep to charge energy to prepare a long day of lecturessss tmr... goarn!

the way the world works...

sleepy...

so sleepy now... today ended school at 2! like first time. went for a jog! feel so good! okay off to sleep till tomorrow sun come up. hahahaha. shall blog abt something nicer when i have time. i'm gonna study like real hard!

okay eyes half close alrdy....

i've found what i've lost for the past few months...

D.I.Y-ing

wednesday, outing with gracey and suni! hahaha! wanted to go on picnic but who knows rain the whole day. orchard still flood somemore. hahaha. so we spend or time walking ard and have late late lunch at kfc and d.i.y-ing our stuff. hahaha. so fun and funny! hahahaha! i wanna have more outing like this! wwwoooohhhooo!

and... i'm so gonna get this. so pretty! is DSLR! its 600 bucks! maybe next IT fair i want to buy. wahahhaha! must save money liao!

and i promise to study REALLY hard when school starts. no more nonsense from me. hahaha! i wanna do more d.i.y stuff myself. and suni's flea market on 10th of july. yeah! oh and suni you're my bf okay? cannot two time me!! ahahahha! grace although you got people want liao but i also want you okay? hahahaha!

nice songs:

pixie lott - my love

pixie lott - the way the world works

pixie lott - jack

pixie lott - hold me in your arms

pixie lott - nothing compares

pixie lott - gravity

pixie lott - turn it up

okay off to sleep, school tmr..... (holiday mood)

making myself tired so that i could sleep better during the night.

exhausted.

can't sleep...

toss and turn on the bed for an hour or so, finally fell asleep ard 1am. this morning woke up at 8am. ohgod! i need more sleep! i was thinking a lot a lot of stuff before i fell asleep yesterday. so tired... going out later, hope the rain stops...

rain rain go away...

nice photos!!

yesterday went out to celebrate huiqi and peiying's birthdaysss.... all 18 already. wahahahaha! but i still the oldest. :( okay la never mind. i wanna wish peiying:

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY!!

yeah! some of the pictures are up from the outing and celebrations. hehehe. i like photos!! hahaha!

okay i like this picture but is too bright!!

friday outing, taken by eunice!

eunice say i love her hot butt!

huiqi and me! somebody very sexy!

hehe taytay!

oooooo! I LOVE THIS PHOTO!

they eat the birthday cake then never give me!

my shiyun. hahaha! so long no see her liao! wahahahaha!

shld i get a camera?? i feel like leh. how huh? today was tuition and gym. muscles ache. hahaha. i saw baith at gym. hehehe. going out tmr! yeah! i love gathering like yesterday with secondary school friends, like we used to after school or holidays outing. hahaha! i miss secondary school, like everyone is saying that. so happy!! hehehehe! and idk why! hahahahahaha!

byebye...

flaws...

okay update a little, friday went out with huiqi and mr and mrs faizal. hahahaha! didn't get anything when shopping. today ahma (dad side) death anniversary woke up early in the morning to head to bedok. then back home fall asleep then research. got difficulty in starting, shall continue tmr. hehehe. i'm so bored. i must be committed to smth man! to find smth to be committed to.

was looking at the pictures from my thumb drive and i saw my hongkong trip pictures. hehehe. i forgot how old was i. 16? pictures were taken in disney land. hehehe!

pohyee, mickey, me! we were looking at the other camera...

winnie and me!!!

this was in their shop where they sell all the disney stuff.

i found this picture on shiyun's fb. hahaha!

i'm so tired even after having afternoon nap. i don't want my life to be so boring. i don't used to be like this last time. what happen to me? maybe i just have to learn to move on with life when somethings are gone and look for the 'future' things. maybe some ppl need bf's to be in their lives then they will feel complete. but until now i don't know what i want. to focus on studies and get into a uni? oh yes definitely. i must buck up. but sometimes i feel so lost... i want to have gd memories when i look back in life when i'm older. in the past time really show me how to put things down.

well... i believe all i need is time & learn to let go what's not mine.

and i trust that looking for your better half takes time. what is yours will be yours and what is not will forever not be yours. my good friends out there, take ur time to find ur better half cause we're still young. hehehe! i love to say i'm young. I WANNA STAY YOUNG FOREVER!!

aiya why sound so wired in this post. anyway is just some feelings. sometimes human feelings are complicated and i love writing down my thoughts and looking back at it... so funny, silly me. i used to write in a diary of my own. hehehe. don't laugh at me hor. dairy only what...

all i need is time.....